New Year

I am posting this on a very very early morning of the 31st of December (3.00 a.m). If that is not early, then I don't know what else would fit the definition.

Since this blog is for myself, I have started writing and will be including my another blog URL in my Instagram profile (call it a big decision). I also wished to talk about my resolutions for the new year.

Therefore, here's the resolution draft:

1. I need to increase my weight by 2kg (it sounds quite impossible but let's just keep this one. I definitely need it.)

2. I want to start exercising. (As a retired athlete and martial artist, my body felt so stiff already. So be it dancercise or jogging or games, I need to Move It! I should really imagine my garang and tegas Taekwondo instructors are here!)

3. I want to learn and learn and learn again (This one, although it sounds like I want to pursue a graduate program, it is not. I have an undeniable greed to learn stuff. For those who have been following me, you might have known that I've been studying Korean and Dutch for some times. Besides that I actually studied some other stuffs but it was put into a halt when my hobbies interfere (call it a distraction and a big one at that)

4. I want to unlock my potential in cooking and living. There are so much for me to learn so there are a lot more hidden potential I could have had. I really, really would like to unlock it.

5. Financially, I had a goal to achieve and and things I'd like to own/experience. So my goal is to get that!

6. In relationship, I just want to spread love and be friend people. I figured that now is not yet the time to be looking for someone whom I want to share my life with. This year, more often than not, I found myself craving to enjoy lone time. Lone time is essential for my cycle of thoughts. It's necessary for my overall wellbeing. Still, I really hope that I will not shut down anyone's offer to get closer. I mean, I am simply not good at being closer than friends. I want to appreciate all those who have been willing to be friend with me since forever. Of course, my family too need to be more appreciated.

7. I want to be an awesomely inspiring person in my field and help my (future) students to do really well in life.

Anything else?🤔

Anyway, let's hope that I will achieve all these!

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There were so many things...

Bismillah 

(in order to suppress any feeling or instinctive desire to swear or write something bad- Aamin) 

TBH, I've been wanting to write since long before but my fingers never danced on the keyboard until now. So Alhamdulillah)

If you notice, the URL changed. (Yes, it was an attempt to run away from my written-during-my-mood-swing kinda posts)

Since I took a break from blogging, things happened and most of them really helped me grow. Therefore, I have a lot of things that I'm going to type here but not tonight (it's already morning).

Just a list:

1. The days of teaching and learning

2. The day I met Sean 

3. Working with foreigners

4. My views on Malaysia

5. Some relationship stuffs

Well, as I just typed, not tonight.

See you soon. InsyaAllah 

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Greetings

It have been quite long that I removed myself from this blogging world. But I've gotta say that nowadays I need it more than ever because life's complicated and I'm not someone who can deal with it perfectly well.

I knew that I've been pretending that I'm alright and the blame for making it much more complicated is on me.

There's just this thing about me that it's hard for me to reveal what I feel about someone whether it is a good feeling like like or a bad feeling like dislike.

I will just pour my feelings right here. So please note that the posts here would be a bit personal but I don't really want to make them private.

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